Jade

3/7/01 3:49pm I sat here..

3/7/01 3:49pm

I sat here lastnight and thought about all the mistake
I have made in my life .But more about what I have done in
the last year.....

God I was such a fool to love someone I had no clue what
he was or really who he is! All i know he latch into my
heart with out any problem,,, Now trying to get him out its
hurting like hell,.. I have been trying for mnths and
everything i have done havent seem to work.

I even thought about cutting that part of heart out ...As
long as i keep hurting and wanting to get him back for the
pain he has cost me... Iam let him and his friend still
controll my life,.. There hasnt been a day that hasnt went
by that I wish I never met any of them... But I would have
missed out on a friend that was nice and cared,.

Sometime my family think there is something wrong with me
cause I sit at the comp and laugh,,,But they could never
relise what I have done and been threw this past year with
people they never knew anything about!
" CAN SOMEONE REMIND ME TO THANK THAT PERSON WHO
INTRODUCED ME TO THAT GROUP OF PEOPLE! I WANT TO THANK HIM
FOR NOT TELLING ME WHAT I HAD GOT MYSELF INTO.. I SHOULD
HAVE ENOUGHT THERE HAD 2 BE A GOOD REASON HE STOPED COMING
AROUND THEM." ::: HEY IF YOU READ THIS::::
THANKS ALOT .. YOU SHOULD HAVE LET ME KNOW WHAT KIND OF ZOO
I WAS ENTERING.....GEEZ YOUR SUCH A GOOD FRIEND " NOT!!!!!"