2023-11-21 02:30:04 (UTC)

YouTube says self hatred makes ..

YouTube says self hatred makes love feel eerie. I was sad but now I’m angry. Angry that I wasn’t enough, that I’m never enough. I guess I’ve progressed in grief. Denial. Sadness. Now Anger. Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

I can feel myself being reborn into something stronger. Something more impermeable. Something unbothered. Something fierce.

The only song that seems to calm me
Worthless by Bullet For My Valentine
Looping. Syncing. Detaching.