Lettin it Out
When You Finally Find That Frequency...
Wow! It's been the most synchronistic 24 hours for me. I'm sitting here thinking about it and I still can't believe it. First off, yesterday I put Chat GPT to the test and began a book project. Holy cow! I was blown away by what I was able to accomplish in just a few short hours. When I stopped working on things for the day, I turned off the computer and said out loud, "I have found my job." That was it. It was like I had been hired and just finished my first day at work. I went to bed feeling confident and proud of myself and I don't know why, but I had this sense of knowing that what I'm doing is what's going to bring me financial success. It was the weirdest thing. I woke up happy this morning and I was eager to work on my project. I sat with my mom and over coffee I told her all about what I was working on. I listened to myself and was amazed at how excited I sounded. I haven't been that excited about anything in years. Even now just describing this to you all gives me the feeling of wanting to jump up and down with excitement and squeal like a seven-year-old girl.
But wait, there's more.
This morning (after coffee with mom) I had a breakfast date with my ex. (I'm using date here as in "appointment" not as in a couple's date). I had promised to have buffet breakfast with him for his birthday in September, but then my dad passed away and it didn't happen. He called last week wanting to meet, but I was just getting over Covid, so we postponed until today. I was happy to fulfill my promise to him, but my feelings about seeing him were neutral. I treated him as a friend. He, on the other hand, was very much looking forward to spending time with me and kissed and hugged me and called me Honey the whole morning. We had a wonderful meal (it was so nice to eat at the buffet--so sad that many of them have closed here in Vegas). Conversation was about his work, my family, and I even told him about my project. We decided to play the slots after breakfast and he gave me $60 to play. He also played $60. This was our old routine when we were married. I didn't say anything. It was his birthday outing and if this was what he wanted, I wasn't going to spoil it for him. So, we played.
There is a cow game called Invaders From the Planet Moolah and it has these cute cows on it that hover above the playing screen in flying saucers and they "zap" the reels with wilds from time to time. (see photo above) The wilds sometimes have money amounts on them, and the cows on the wilds "Moo" when you get a combination and sometimes do special things like double the bonus game or add wilds. I love to play this game. I put in my $20 and on the third spin I got a combination with the wilds. The cows "mooed" and there was a rainbow-colored cow that was part of one of the combinations I hit. A screen appeared that said I had captured the Unicow and all these rainbow cows came out of the reels and moved to the left of the screen. The game began giving me all these great combinations and it triggered the bonus. When it was all said and done, I had 300 free games for the bonus and I was playing $2.50 max bet. My ex had gone to the bathroom and when he came back, he saw that I had hit all those free games and he stayed with me to see how much I'd end up with. The game retriggered several times and I'll bet I got about 350 free games when it was all over with. My payout was $3000!!!! I could not believe it. That's the most I've ever won at the casino.
Here are the thoughts that were running through my head: Now I have enough money to hold me over until February. No more big rush to find a job so I can pay my bills. I can enjoy Christmas. I can focus on my project and really get it going. I don't have to rely on my mom for money next month. I chose my job and the Universe paid me in advance. I had finally gotten on the right frequency.
Everything fell into place today--including being with my ex. I don't want us to get back together, but I recognize that he's in my life for a reason. It was because of his invitation and generosity that I was at the casino in the first place. It was because he went to the bathroom that I put my money in that cow machine while I was waiting for him. He didn't stop being in my life when we divorced, and I didn't divorce him because I didn't like him; it was a matter of not being able to live together and manage money as partners. Now that we are apart, we communicate better, we're willing to help each other, and I'm not constantly stressed out. I know he won't admit it, but I think he's happier living in his own place (he had never had his own place before- he's always lived with his brother and his family), and I know he likes managing his money his own way and living with no rules but his own. We're in a good place with one another right now and I'm glad. I gave him $400 of my winnings. He's Zelled me money (without me asking for it) over the past couple of months and I wanted to share my win and give him a birthday gift. He was surprised and gratefully accepted the money.
So beginning Monday, that planner I bought is going to be my new work management system. I'm dead serious about treating this project like a job and I'm going to set up my work week. I'm excited to be working! Guess I better go to bed. I have a busy day tomorrow.