Addicted to you no more
Nothing else matters
Family - the most demotivating environment for me ever. I need to step out of this.
But for that I need something real. I'll stop trying to attract guys but will focus on attractng exclusive, monogamous, long-, term commitment instead. Either with this guy or some other one. After all that doesn't matter. Nothing matters if we don't consider it valuable. And only what lasts is valuable. Everything else will pass.
I know it's not time to play with open cards yet. But wasting time is killing me. Faking it won't make me make it in the end anyway. So it's time to make the most of my next turn in this game.