Gabriela Alexis

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2023-06-09 04:50:27 (UTC)

Bonded

well its been a good while since I actually took the time to write about anything. today I just need to get some stuff off my chest. I have not slept good in almost a week now. Rod and I are bonded... what he does affects me greatly. soo let me clarify.... well we have been working on legitizming his mobile car detailing business and I have been completely supportive. but the thing is this.... when a man is worried or stressing about stuff the last thing on his mind is sex... I am a feminine woman whose extra sensitive.... I crave that intimacy from him. and because I have not had that in almost a week, I am extra sensitive. not feeling his touch makes me wanna cry and I'm not mad at him or taking it personally but the woman in me is CRAVING that intimacy... I have not slept well... I am extra sensitive about everything. at work I busted out crying in front of my coworkers, out of the overwhelming feeling with everything we was going thru dealing with this buisness... it is not easy. I toss and turn, I tear up about stuff. yesterday morning I jumped in the shower just to CRY! I know Rod has seen me cry but I don't want him to feel bad or anything because I don't want him to think that I am crying about not having sex, but for me it is more than that. like right now, I wanna cry as I type but I am holding it in because I don't want him to start his day off catching me crying in front of my computer about not having that intimacy with him. I know it has been stressful trying to open your business but I am a woman and all I want is him. I cant help that, we are bonded. I don't know if he feels this strong about it which I doubt it. a man thinks different, they feel different. not having sex is okay with him. he likes to harness his energy. I just cant wait for all this business shit to be over and done with... starting a business is hard freaking work. I don't even wake up in a good mood and it is crazy that not having sex like this is affecting me like this. there was plenty of times that we waited days, or even a week where we don't have sex and I guess its because we choose to hold back. but starting this business has been so stressful, sex is not even on his mind so its like we are not choosing to not have sex, its just not on his mind right now. which is like he is ok without it but now for me its like I'm forced to wait... it sucks. I want him. I want my boyfriend. I want his touch. his love.... maybe I might get some tonight, maybe... we shall see. another day. another day without sex.




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