The lonely codependent

Day 3: Getting things going?

So, I'm standing here in these damn expensive clothes. I don't hate job interviews... I detest them. Because it seems like I'm never good enough.

But anyway, let's try to stay positive. Whatever else happens to me today that can only be better than this, right? That's one thing for sure. Especially because my train leaves soon and I need to visit a special place tomorrow ❤️

Other than that, let's think... What are my 3 biggest strengths? This and this and this. What are my 3 biggest weaknesses? This... And this... And this, these will probably do it. Who is my idol? I think I can answer that question, let's think about other things that make feel motivated... So I feel fine.

I walked to the place where I was supposed to meet my bosses-to-be. They were sitting at a table talking to another lady. So the situation was kinda obvious, this is exactly the situation I'd been afraid of.

However, instead of thinking about that feeling I was trying to smile and decided to focus on making a nice introduction. The most important thing is to become better than the person I was yesterday after all and nothing else matters too much. And I think I've already managed to do achieve that goal because I don't want to run away from this situation anymore. In the end everything will be fine somehow. Trying and constantly learning from whatever is happening around me won't make me a less valuable person. On the contrary, the opposite is true.

Now we wait. My mom is getting on my nerves again. I'm finally trying to get a part-time job as she told me to and now she's like what kind of people are you gonna meet, what if they want to kidnap you or who knows... I think it will be hard to fix my relationship with her this way if nothing is ever good for her.

Suddenly I forgot what else I wanted to write about today so I think it's time for me to get on the train because life is not gonna stop...