La Flaca

There's a feeling between ..

There's a feeling between the lines of the songs we listen to and the memories that they trigger. I got the letters from my mom just now, as I read them all I can see is how much love I needed from the People I love at that moment, and I was so far away from home living in AK with distant family members. I had to come back home after a few months of working at an old navy store as an assistant manager being bilingual helped me with the Hispanic community of customers that spoke no English whatsoever. A lot of triggered memories that are painful and sad. But I also managed to overcome all those struggles, I guess.
I don't talk about these things of my past, every one of my siblings and I figured life out as these challenges came to be, my mom being in Prision for 8 years meeting a lot of her newest grandchildren in Prision is not something anyone ever wants to speak about. I did, with my mom. Once was more than enough times to talk to her about the unspoken. I mean she doesn't need a constant reminder of her wrong doings she has suffered more than 2 lifetimes. She needs all the loving and support any of us can give her. I was 17 last time I moved away. It's been 23 years since I left home, and it's a place I love/hate being there. Am tired of a lot of things that just never changed.