AmberG

24/05

I don't really have much to say today. I'm still so tired. I don't know why I can't sleep. It's been going on too long now. Might call the doctor tomorrow and see if she will give me some sleeping pills. Last time I asked her she only gave me 2 and told me to take half. No that's not how they work. The psychiatrist last year gave me a few and said one at night when needed. They helped a bit. So I need to try and get some more. I need a decent sleep. Not just getting a 2 hour nap here and there. It's getting ridiculous now. It needs to be sorted.

Everyday I am grateful for everything mum and dad does for me. I love them both so much. I'm lucky to have them in my life.

Hootie tootie has made friends with the new tenants who moved in next to me. I really hope she's not down here all the time. I won't be able to cope with that. It was bad enough today when she came down to have a look at the place. I don't know what I'd do if she's over there all the time. I will deal with that if it happens.

Not long after I moved to Wales Emma came to visit with her then boyfriend later husband. We went down to the garden. The cottage was halfway up a mountain so you had to walk down a bit to get to the garden. So the 3 of us were sitting on an oldish metal bench. Emma can get pretty animated when she talks. And we were chatting away and she was bouncing up and down. I knew it was going to happen just before it did. And yes the bench collapsed. I was like it wasn't us if anyone asks. It was funny. We just walked back to the cottage laughing and didn't say anything.