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Motherfucking hatred

Ugh, had to text with m. Again and all i have to say its that it fucking hurts. He still makes me smile. Even tho i hate him with a burning passion. Lmao im noticing more and more how much of a shifty person he became. But i miss them tho. I miss the person they used to be a year or so ago. I miss the person who cared about my feelings, made me feel loved and needed. I really loved him you know? And im damn sure he loved me back. I just cant accept how such a precious one turned into a selfish bastard who only cares about their own good. I cant understand why im still staying in this relationship, you know when we had no contact for a week i finally starter feeling like myself and loved my happy little life even tho i was kinda lonley but today i had to fucking break down crying because of how much i dont understand my own feelings and the fact if i care or not. Kids, never EVER get in close relationships with mentally ill and ruined ppl because hurt ppl hurt ppl and thats the truth.