Kitty Diary

Kitty Diary
2023-05-15 14:06:52 (UTC)

Feeling down

I had an okay mother's day. Don't want to talk about it much because my bf somehow always makes these types of things about him.
The girls were very sweet, made me really nice and beautiful cards. Bought me a eyeshadow palette and a mini setting spray. They should've just bought me a gift card to get a hair cut hahah. My bf always takes these holidays to subtly bitch about the things I don't do and that I owe him... Like I already don't do enough. All night we didn't talk to each other, I cried this morning briefly... Days like these, I don't even want to go home. I just want to forget about it and move on, even though he doesn't even deserve That much. He should be scrubbing the floors, finding a job, giving me my back rubs like HE OWES ME.
I just have no motivation today, I still want to cry, but what's the point. None. It'll just ruin my makeup. I'll probably try to get a movie in at work today, maybe a scary one or something.

Also, I have zero sex drive - wtf why? I used to think that my sex drive back then would never go away, and look at me now. I don't even want my kids to touch me. I don't even want me man to look at me. Really what I'm missing is the affection, I need that hug and embrace, I haven't been getting kissed because he's been sick for the past week. Which is fine, but then he just wants to jump right into sex. No, I don't do that, at least no anymore.

Okay I gotta get to work now, I actually have some things to do before I'm asked "what the frick have you been doing???"

Talk to you later




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