someoneprobablydelusionallol

How can I be so stupid.

Lol. He literally replaced me, ghosted me for a whole week, admitted he doesn’t give a shit about me or my feelings and prefers spending time with others and i still care. Not only about not being important anymore to them but about this relationship. Although I think im beginning to care less and less and im glad that’s so.. BUT STILL I HAVE TO FUCKING THINK ABOUT THIS WHOLE SITUATION AND BLAME MYSELF HAHAHAHHA. Im so dumb to still care for a person who hurt me multiple times… these entries are getting more and more repeated it kinda sucks bc uhh I try to reflect my thoughts here and when my thoughts are the same this entries are too- damnnnnnn I feel so weak recently and idk derealised? Even now I barely know what’s happening and what I’m doing ahhahaha but still trying for somebody just for them to replace you sucks..