Up All Night
2023-05-10 01:48:13 (UTC)


They gave me a credit increase because I've been good about making payments, so I went shopping and bought a laptop computer to replace my gaming laptop that died on me. The one I ordered isn't as good as my gaming laptop, but is good enough. It's got as much as I could afford. My brother bought me the gaming laptop when I first moved into this apartment. I had it for four years. I'm going to install The Sims 4 on the new one after I get it out of S mode, if it has S mode. If it does, it won't let me install anything I want to until I get rid of S mode. So I've been looking at all that. Might be Windows 11, although it was supposed to be 10. My new monthly payment is 70 dollars. Up from 46.99 ...

Went to the doctor today. I haven't lost much weight, but haven't gained any either. I've been eating a lot. I need to cut some carbs so I can continue to lose weight. Just don't eat as much. I thought for sure I'd have a weight gain because of how much I've been eating and it hasn't been just salads. Salads and other things mixed in. Plus, I've binged on occasion. I don't purge when I binge. It all stays down.

I've been hearing voices on occasion, especially at night when I'm trying to go to sleep. One night I turned out the light and there were voices talking to me. It creeped me out, so I tried sleeping with the light on. When I turned the light on they stopped. So it has to be dark in the room to hear those kind of voices. We'll see if I hear any tonight. Heard some today too while I was just going about things of the day, but not a lot. I haven't heard any for hours at least. I dislike the auditory hallucinations that happen at night, those are the worst. If you didn't know what it was you'd think it was a ghost or some other entity. But I know they are hallucinations. Usually I don't have any.

For dinner tonight I had chicken parmesan and spaghetti noodles with pasta sauce and veggies.

I'm drinking RC.