Amber's ramblings
2023-05-07 21:41:39 (UTC)


Is it wrong that I want to give him another chance. I told mum to slap some sense into me. She told me it's my decision but he will just hurt me again. And I know she's right. I've had his mate talking to me today. Demanding I send him pictures of us and I said no. He goes on about me not respecting him yet he has none for me. Demanding that kind of picture. Who does he think he is. I don't know him I've never met the bloke and I'm certainly not sending him photos of me like that. He said he's trying to help. How is that supposed to help. It would destroy everything between me and him. He would get mad and jealous and I don't even take those kind of pictures. He's going mad and I don't care he can say what he wants I'm never going to meet him.

I'm trying to stay strong today but I got upset talking to mum.

I'm trying to stay calm but I'm arguing with him now because of his mate. I just don't know what I'm doing anymore. I'm still vulnerable and bruised by what happened. I'm so tired of arguing with him. It's not going to work between us if he can't listen. I'm sick of his friends trying to get involved in our lives.

I'm done arguing with him. I can't deal with it tonight. He has a go at me no matter what I say or do. I can't do this anymore. Things were starting to look up and now it feels like I'm crashing down again. Nothing I do is good enough I may as well just give up now.