Jello's Heart
2023-04-25 19:56:28 (UTC)

Okay Now

I... relapsed into addiction last night. Came to my dad on the verge of tears, and we prayed.

"It's going to be okay"

For a while now, my addiction has been expressed as this female version of Jello, and it has been good to give my enemy a face. I call her Blueberry, and she'll show up from time to time.

But I will beat her. Day by day, I will win, but more than that, I will get back up each and ever time she knocks me down. She might be stronger, but only one of us has to keep getting up-- and my secret weapon, I'm not alone in this fight.

Blueberry, you won't rule me forever. I promise that.