Went shopping with mum today. It would have been great if it hadn't been for the rain. It was still good though. I love spending time with her.
Had a nice chat with mum tonight. She listened and held my hand while I cried. Talked about him. And she said she wouldn't stop me going back to him. I said no I'm serious you can't let me. I've cried too many tears over him. I have to move on. I have to stop letting him do this to me.
After I finished crying mum gave me the biggest hug and I did feel better. I think I needed to let those tears go. And they will be the last over him.
I made mum and dad laugh tonight. I told mum I love her and would do anything for her. I told dad I love him but I would push him Infront of a zombie to save Penny lol. They laughed but now I'm thinking it may have been mean. Great now I'm overthinking it. I already hate myself for the stress and worry I put them through over the last couple of months.
I think I'm going to cry again.