AmberG

11/04 am

Couldn't be bothered last night. I was messaging him. Told him I'm seeing the doctor on Thursday and if she can't help me this time I'm giving up. He thought I meant I was gonna kill myself. I said no I'm just giving up on everything. And I mean everything. I will slowly die I'm sure if I give up eating and drinking. It won't take long. I'm just done trying to make people listen. If they're not going to take me seriously what's the point? My death will be on them.

Been awake a lot of the night. Tossing and turning all night. I went to bed relatively early but just couldn't sleep. Got up at around 7. I'd probably be ok if I could sleep. But no.