pillsbury

here and there
2023-03-24 19:46:19 (UTC)

almost summer (sorta)

Hello diary people. Today was especially normal.
Yesterday, the dude who sits in front of me for class decided to say hi to me. I am wondering why he barely did that, since I have sat in front of him since January. He even tried to make conversation with me. Maybe he saw that I felt left out the last time, and decided to include me into his conversation. Anyway, it was nice. I hardly talk to people so nonchalantly. I feel like I am conversation starved! I really hate the way I exclude myself from social settings. I hate even more that someone might have noticed me doing that.
So many weird things I want to say on here. And no, not that kind of weird. I am only truly honest with myself, as we all are I suppose. The thing is, how honest do I really want to be on here? I got so much shit to get off my chest. Maybe I will just type it all out and hit post.
I have found myself to be so weird with these anonymous things. Even anonymously, I feel too exposed, yet I still want my words to be seen by somebody, anybody!
The internet makes me feel like a crazy person. I have built up this persona on social media: a happy, silly, carefree girl. I am none of these things, and everybody is falling for it.
I had deleted my social media, but as you all might know, I added it back to keep in touch with the Ukrainian girl.
People are so weird, myself included.
Happy Friday y'all!




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