The lonely codependent

I'm speechless!

I tried several dating apps on my phone today without any high expectations. I was prepared for many things but what surprised me despite that was a guy who wants to have 11 kids based on his emojis and that my phone froze twice during the process.

As Robbie Williams would say, 'I sit and talk to God And he just laughs at my plans'. God is definitely not ready to save me from loneliness and I don't expect him to do so at all costs at the moment as I'm trying to accept how I feel about being single, but I haven't been feeling very well mentally recently.

So, here's another failed attempt, so I'll go back and keep fighting against myself while waiting in the shadows. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UuOL4IJukBU