The lonely codependent

In the shadows

I've been watchin', I've been waitin'
In the shadows for my time...

Which is not now - which is always the answer - as I am disappearing in the shadows instead of coming out of the darkness.

The guy I almost dated uploaded a holiday photo a few minutes ago - from last summer when we met. So in the photo there is him and my city but I'm nowhere to be seen. That's kinda ironic and gives me an unpleasant feeling.

There is another situation too that I don't know how to solve yet. Should I even care if I want to break the vicious circle related to it? Who knows?

I'm tired of hiding in the shadows and being a tool to fix the relationship problems of other people who are otherwise happy together... or alone. I want to be one of them in fact...