Whatever

Insatiable?
2023-03-14 22:37:19 (UTC)

Getaway

I got an airbnb for 2 nights in the big city. I have appts, chiro twice a wk, and he was having a lecture tonight and wanted me to come so made my appt just before it. It would put me home later, but then there is a 12 step meeting at 8pm, why so late??? Makes it hard for those who live an hour and a half away when meetings are that late. sigghhh

It will be my first official meeting in the new state, I am excited, pray its a cool group of people. I need to find my people here. Im in contact with friends back in Ca, already had 2 texts of being missed, one invited me to come back and stay with her.

Sigh

Yeah and I am away from home till thurs eve. Sitting in my own quiet space now and its like heaven, drove out to a bakery in the middle of nowhere and got an Apple Pie. My own for my little place.

Stabilizer Dude has been awesome, can you believe he even rescheduled a meeting today just to talk to me? He read me a book during one of my appts where Im relaxing for an hour, hes reading me Louis Lamour

Last night I did talk to Hot Missionary, hadnt really since my anxiety attack at home. I just didnt feel like it, so he had a talk with me telling me I need to talk and put all my cards on the table with my spouse and talk of moving... Not sure Im ready to go quite there so fast, that makes me have anxiety.

Stabilizer dude said we need to meet, and I agree, we are also just talking of meeting. I had loftier ideas last yr over meeting, but we should just see if we do click in person, I mean we will be friends regardless, and he said its okay if there is nothing romantic between us feeling wise in person. We have just shared so much, there hasnt been any sex talk since that night and he keeps telling me he loves me outside of that.

He went and made a spreadsheet calendar for me of the meetings in my state and made it all coded and put together for me??!!

He sends me recipes for dishes

He genuinely talks to me. Hes so kind and thoughtful.

Im looking at some dance classes in town also, since Im going to be coming here twice a wk, fill my days with things to nurture myself.




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