The lonely codependent

Withdrawal of excitement

Again I feel that I can't take it anymore. I need to go out into the world and make and make new experiences, sharing them with someone who cares because otherwise there would be not much progress!

But I still don't have friends and shouldn't even dream about a relationship so I can keep suffering, I don't know how long.

By the way I'm listening to this song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HJrKVYJdABc This is exactly what I usually feel as a codependent when I am falling in love with the wrong person.