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taking heed
2023-03-12 22:05:27 (UTC)

first loss of the szn (oh no! it's a fantasy hockey entry)

the second last week of the "regular" season has brought my team to it's knees. the schedule was a factor but a noticable lack of "juice", let's be honest, was the real culprit *stares in jeremy swayman*. an unparalleled season suddenly come down with a classic case of limping into the playoffs. you hate to see it, if you're me. and i do. but i've had a good day at ma and pa's and a sizeable piece of edible is rendering all of this totally fine and insignificant.

all this on the heels of a particularly vacant and listless week. i did my taxes. i thought about the usual cast of characters longingly. i existed in the shadows. i ate a chicken big mac. i scrolled through it all with the heart of a champion without so much as a single cuddle. brutal.

finally, i apologize about the prose of this entry, especially the opening paragraph and title. and every entry previously.

had that thing happen when your emotional state shifts slightly while writing and you feel like an imposter about everything.

it's fine. in a not fine kind of way.

the mask clicks on.

anticipating a week of daylight saving after effects and .. did i mention i was "up" at 4am to grab a guy off the wire, but he didn't become available til 5? and then i kind of overslept and my microwave clock was still on old time. pure chaos.

if anyone makes it this far and lives in the time change inclusion zone. my heart goes out to you this week.




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