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taking heed
2023-03-01 23:54:13 (UTC)

sputtering (positive)

i've been sputtering around and taking a more efficient approach to spoon management this week.

being present and more engaged than usual in the surroundings (digital irl) in spurts, concentrated clusters of spurts. posting instagram stories by the handful. i think it's mostly because this girl started following me and watching all my stories. prompting me to post more stories. she's interesting (cute) and and nd i reckon. i've been following her page for a while. -- did someone say, start feeling romancy feelings based on parasocial perceptions and imagination? ookkayy --
hopefully neither of us reach out in actuality. pass the sputter.

mike is coming over tomorrow for a hang allegedly. rearranged my entire week to give my body the best chance at being close to fully charged. it remains resilient whilst beset by the challenges. don't even feel like canceling yet. feeling warm to possibilities of human connection. but will it be there in the morning when i sputter to consciousness? or will a sore abdomen threaten derailment.

*scratches out the last paragraph*

ai could never replace an entry like this.




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