Moctimore

Or maybe there was nothing.

Maybe it’s true that none of this happened, and I’m just a drop in the ocean. If so, then that's good. The point is that you, as a human being, have the power to control things. Even the smallest push is capable of moving mountains, the main thing is to know the point of the moment of force. I'm probably upset that everything will remain a mystery to me. But by some signs, I determine that there was something. With sensual matters it is always like this, you never know if it was for real or you yourself invented everything. But one thing I know for sure. I will be more attentive to who I am inspired by and to whom I write. I know for sure that these were and are bad people, and even if I screwed myself up, in any case, I'm not going to give them hope or rehabilitate for myself. Unfortunately, there are very few people in the world who are ready to change themselves for the sake of a better fate, and these people are definitely not one of them.
Now I can do what I love to the fullest. I'm weird but at least I'm more normal than most people I've met.
I don't need anything from anyone. My goal is to draw, which I already do. Whether someone needs me or not, whether someone needs my art is absolutely not important. It is important that I remained a man and retained my dignity, which could easily not have happened if someone could really collect all the nonsense that I said during my whole journey on the Internet. The funny thing about this is that I have remained open to everyone, anyone can write to me, but no one does. I'm just glad that this philosophy is not only mine. Probably my friend did not understand why I love one series so much. He probably thinks that I just chose some random series to add a social feature, but it was hard for me to explain it all and why I still love this series so much. This series is proof of my decades of sociological research that my theory works, that I was right many years ago. A new renaissance is coming and I'm so happy that I caught it, five years ago I could not have imagined that I would find it. And most importantly, the fandom itself is ready to accept it. If at the beginning of the diary I did make a mistake, then you should know that nothing worked out for you, not because I or someone else was messing with you, but because you initially gave birth to a broken system, it was stillborn, it’s not even that you cruel and vicious people and the fact that you created a stillborn system, almost killed the fandom and now you are sitting on a corpse. As I once said that living on a corpse and convincing yourself that everything is in order, sprinkling spirits on this very corpse is a sure way to degradation. It’s even good that you do this, because at least you don’t interfere with others to create something new, and we distract you from them because no matter how much you consider yourself great, you are too big, like a bunch of old people, like squabbles and petty quarrels. My generation knows what it is fighting for and is ready to make sacrifices without even knowing if it's all for real, the main thing is that your hands are on our necks, small, pathetic bugs that are not even worthy of your hands, as you like to imagine. But we are not afraid, for so many years we have understood how to fight with you and it's time to pay back, for which you almost killed fandom for your terrible philosophy.