Anxiety chasing me today
I am pleased to report that I am no longer a bundle of emotions, but I must confess to not purely having good news. I went to prepare my herbal supplement that I drink for pain, and I realised that I only have two doses left. The reason I didn’t know this earlier, that I was running out, I mean, is that I had to buy a different brand in a different container and being blind, well, it was hard for me to tell. This would not ordinarily be an issue, but it is the end of the month and my finances are pretty much nonexistent at the moment. Not to mention when I do get paid on Wednesday, I will have to go get money exchanged since I am paid in Euros and pounds, two different sources of income, and America, Texas to be exact, does not use either of those currencies.
I can’t wait to get back home. I do want to see Carrie again, but we’ll see if that happens. I don’t know what’s going on with her, but I’ve come to one conclusion. This, what happened, is probably a good thing. I think we were becoming too dependent on one another. Ok, so I didn’t hear from her until yesterday evening. I haven’t heard from her today. Still, every time I mentioned talking, to work out the remainder of our issues, she never responds, so I don’t know if she doesn’t want to do this, doesn’t think there’s anything left to say, or just isn’t responding because we’ll talk sooner or later. We were supposed to talk yesterday, but by the time I heard from her, she said she was going back to sleep because her husband was on his way home from picking up his mother and taking her to her new nursing facility. I don’t know if I should be the one to take the initiative to call or not. My friend Dan was right. It’s hard to have a friend when you doubt their motives or what they’ve said. Yes indeed. Still and all, I’m hoping we can work this out and continue our friendship. If we can’t, well, then God knows best.