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Feeling ill

I have been giving Carrie her space today. She texted me around noon and I just replied with a preprogrammed reply. I didn’t hear from her for a long time, about 7 hours, and then she apologised saying she’s been busy, doing nothing much.

I’ve felt ill all day. Kind of nauseated, very tired, a little dizzy. I don’t know if it’s the edibles I had at 1 AM this morning, or if it is one of my autoimmune diseases rearing it’s ugly head. I suppose, it does not matter much.

Right now, I am watching something on teenage killers. Thank God my boys all turned out to be mostly sane. They all joined the IRA, so I’m thankful for that.

I guess I am just going to wait and see what happens with this whole thing…. For what else can I do? I admit to being very insecure. In my life experience, most people I love end up leaving me for one reason or another and it’s always *my* fault. The only one who has stayed is S and I don’t love her at all. I like her *sometimes* but love? She keeps turning up like a bad penny…. What can I say?

I believe it is supposed to rain. I have given my wee dog something for his storm phobia. I hope it helps. I might go back to sleep for a while. I’ll probably be up all night, but as Ireland is 6 hours ahead of Texas, I see this as reasonable whilst I’m here.