The lonely codependent

Even more boredom for the end of the day

Our company server is down because everybody has to do some administration work for a big project so this evening hasn't been very exciting so far.

So, I finally do what everybody else does basically. What if this tendency began in other areas of my life too and I weren't the one left out anymore? Although I'm still not sure I really want to pursue the same goals as most people. I still can't imagine doing this kind of job and having kids too, that would simply be too much.

I went to a café today, thank God they only mentioned the upcoming holiday but hadn't really prepared for it. I started talking to the waitress about this and it turned out she's a year younger than me and engaged. So, the shame of being a spinster stays on me, I don't think there's anything about that I can do this year. My time keeps getting wasted, as always, till the end of time. I'm trying to get used to it but that seems impossible.