Do you know what? I don't care anymore. He has pissed me off too many times. I'm so used to him doing this I don't even worry about him now. It's just a part of life. I'm done trying. If he messages me tonight I don't care he can do one. I can't cope with it anymore. He can play his games. He does this all the time and I'm really done. All he is doing is pushing me further away when he doesn't talk to me or tell me what's happening. So you're reading this don't bother texting me I won't answer. I'm done with your excuses. I'm gonna cancel the hotel for march. Because there really isn't any point anymore. I thought he was different I thought he was my soulmate. He played me and now I need to try and fix myself and get over him. I may as well be single because we don't have a proper relationship. It's always me that has to travel to go see him. He has never once offered to come here. I'm trying to hold back the tears because he's not worth them. I shouldn't have to constantly wonder where I stand. I don't want anyone else. He's broken me beyond repair now. I'm so done.