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What is my future like?

I’ve been doing better recently. I started the homework I procrastinated to do and started reviewing.

I also started researching the country I want to go to which made me feel anxious. I read so many posts about people describing their work-life which makes working seem so depressing. But at the same time, I couldn't stop myself from being sucked into my phone and consuming all these unhelpful content.

Before reading them, I knew there is a world outside of school but I never understood how hard working and supporting yourself can be. I'm able to buy coffee and little snacks because of the hard work my parents put in everyday. However, I never appreciated these opportunities enough. In middle school, I hoped we could afford the greater luxuries my classmates enjoyed even though I already live a comfortable life.

I don’t think I will be able to afford those luxuries in the future and it will be weird I guess. But I think it’s fine to experience restraint. It’s not necessarily a bad thing. I snack too much anyways.

I hope I'll be able to cover my essentials and continuing creating things I love.