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Are you better than me?

I decided to sell second-hand goods in my local community. I thought it would be a good idea to contact the leader of a club, focusing on charity-related events to see if they would be interested in this project. The leader of the club is a popular student who has top grades and I’ve always felt slightly inferior to her. I sent her a message, explaining the overall idea of my project and waited. A day passed. Nothing. Two days passed. Nothing. It’s been a week and she hasn’t texted me back. Her not replying to me made me feel quite bad about myself at first. I tried to make sense of it all by assuming she doesn’t use her account a lot as she doesn’t post much.

However, the feeling of inferiority crashed over me when I saw her username under someone’s post one day. It’s like the moment when you realize your best friend has been talking trash behind you the whole time. Having low self-esteem is like feeling the whole world is against you when you're just a normal human being going on with your life. She probably missed my text or forgot to reply.

Ever since I texted her, I’ve also contacted some other people and decided that I don’t want their club to take over all the work I’ve done and it’s probably better this way.