AmberG

02/02

Been a few days since I wrote in here. I can't stop thinking about him. I've got a hotel booked for march so I can see him again. He's worried about money and paying for it. I told him I've got it or at least I will have by then. He didn't seem keen on it. I hope he's not going off me. I know that's stupid to say because he does love me. But does he love me enough. And I really don't know the answer to that. Because he says he does but his actions say otherwise. If he loved me as much as he says he does then he would be with me. I wouldn't be a secret that he has to hide.

College tomorrow should be interesting. I'm having words with the teacher. I'm not happy with how the course is going. He hasn't taught us a damn thing. I'm supposed to be doing level 1 this month and level 2 at the end of the school year. And last week he was talking about 1 exam and it's for a much lower level than I was aiming for. What am I supposed to do. This isn't what I signed up for. Back in September when I started we had a fantastic teacher. And she promised me I would have at least level 2 but the end of the school year. Then the college gave us a different teacher and it's all gone south. He hasn't even tried to teach us anything. I am so annoyed by it. I was doing this for me and he's ruined it. We'll see what happens tomorrow.