The lonely codependent

"Dating is not my priority now"

That's what one of the guys I've been talking to recently has told me. I'm a bit envious of people who say that. They probably have a job and other things they are not struggling with and they are more independent than me in general.

Well, this could be some good learning experience for me, as the biggest problem in my case is mostly my impatience. On the other hand I'm also thinking about letting God decide who the right partner is for me so in that case I simply need to wait. He can be this person or someone else, only God knows.

However, the thought of waiting makes me angry, very angry. What the hell should I wait for if I constantly feel like it's already too late? That makes no sense at all! I can't take any more loneliness, I'm sorry!