Where do I fit?
Once, I thought we were two of a kind…. Kindred. Two sides of the same coin. Now, now I just don’t know. You seem to be going forward and I back. You seem to be changing and growing and I seem to be stuck, if not regressing. If this is what you want, I will do my best to support it. I don’t agree with the path you’ve chosen. No, on the surface, there is nothing wrong with the path. In fact, it seems quite sensible and safe. In reality however, I don’t think isolating yourself and ridding yourself of all outside influences other than prayer are going to take away the pain, make you happy or make you feel fulfilled.
Of course one should pray. Of course one should trust God. Of course one should do everything, be everything and give everything for His glory, but one should also spend the time in wholesome pursuits, reading, writing, studying, playing music, etc.
So, I’m asking myself on this early morning…. Where do I fit in? Will I still know you in a month’s time? In two? I hope so…. I think not.