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2023-01-25 09:22:03 (UTC)

It's crazy how you can ..

It's crazy how you can yell at me all day while saying I'm stupid for not listening when my mind is thinking about 20 different things all at once. I wouldn't be able to sleep at night If I knew my child was crying themselves to sleep. You invalidate me so much, constantly looking at me like I'm an idiot when I come to YOU for help.
This feeling is relentless, I am so tired of just waking up in general. As soon as I feel like I'm getting better I get worse. It's not fair.
I don't want a part of this world at all, I should not be here. I shouldn't wake up and have to prepare myself for another day, just telling myself that I'll get to the next one. I am fucking miserable.

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