Notes of Consciousness
Compressed Emotion Repressed Cognition
There’s not a guarantee that ..
There’s not a guarantee that outside equates to inside
And the opposite
The inside doesn’t equate to the outside
So what makes a person think they’re a person
Better yet
What is a person away from other people
It’s always deduced back to the question of purpose
What is the purpose of a person
What is the reason for a lifetime
What is the why
Dna and its manifestation describe many aspects of human behavior
Adaptation
Subatomic particles describe manifestations of nuclear behavior
What’s beyond the beyond
What’s outside of envy and jealousy
What’s outside of pride
I can’t accept myself
Self-acceptance is a myth in my reality
Adaptation
Compensation
Retribution
Retaliation
This diary is to compensate for what my phenotype severely lacks
It’s to compensate for my lack of knowledge
But why
Why
I just want to learn and evolve
But is that the reason I’m here
Is that the reason for this diary
I’ll never know
The design is designed to specifically produce behavior thought and emotion
Random people are random in the world of randomness
But something makes them known to thought and feelings that make them not so random
Why the need to come clean
What would that do
The social climate hasn’t seemed to change in millions of years
What does it matter that one uses spirit that creates detrimental emissions for the air that’s already toxic to begin with
Why do I need to feel like I mean something in a social world that doesn’t see me as meaning anything
I’m meaningless but I can’t accept that
The social reactions create its own version of what I am
I can’t accept it
So what do I accept
I accept the idea of life having magical powers
That’s the only thing I’ll ever accept
But that could be another version of my compensation
Is there a human in the world that doesn’t have to compensate for anything
Is there a human in the world that doesn’t lack anything
Maybe infants
Infants are the stem cells of magical power that life can withhold
