The lonely codependent

So far so good

I haven't updated for a while although quite a while ago I basically kicked the guy out of my life who took my virginity years ago. He's probably getting married soon so he has no idea how lucky I think he is although I know his story and relationship problems from the past. No more people who can't commit to me, please!

Since then life has been okay, I can say with some promising changes in some areas and without them in others. I've also met some religious Christian people recently who keep making me question my life goals. I left my Christian community long ago for the same reason when I decided that I may never be ready to have kids. Then I got angry with God for still not sending me a partner and I don't think these conflicts can be resolved so easily.

At least I'm not alone. I'm never totally alone, which is a good thing.

I've been quite sober this year and like a virgin unlike in 2022 when I basically started the year with sleeping with a guy I didn't know and then his friend too. I'm becoming more serious so I wish my relationships too were too or I had hope of that at least. Well, I might go on my first date this year soon so I can share yet another secret about my addictions in my report on how it went...