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Ok so....

Well I was staying strong until lunch, then when I got to my car, there was feedback that just said to rub it out

So I did.....but only 5 times today, at lunch, so while i failed the no instant gratification, that's better than 15, so I guess I will take that as a win.

Now I am just focusing on this new breathing app that is 'brown noise' supposed to help with anxieties I guess so I will try. Waiting on Mike to go to bed so I can join him for some much teased loving. I am just sitting here keeping my legs crossed tight with my leg swinging, ignoring the fire.

I can make it.....probably 15 more minutes and Mike will head to bed, I'm supposed to be in there naked waiting for him yeah but I can't trust myself haha so I will sit out here and wait. I can do this

Isn't this waiting supposed to make it better???

Or if I push the magical bean wouldn't I just be getting it ready for him????

Hmmmmmm