Slowly descending into madness
2023-01-12 19:41:10 (UTC)
Oh God, everything is crumbling
You know what's bothering me right now? When I decided to run away from my house, I didn’t text/call June. I asked for help to 4 people, one of them was the only one who denied me the help, and to think that I loved this man for 2 years. Not anymore. But I didn’t reach out to June. And reaching out to June would be the most practical thing he knows me better than anyone and he would give me shelter. I know that better than anyone. So why didn't I call him? Am I still angry about that thing in August? Probably. But subconsciously.
All winter ever brought me was depression. That's all. I took days off Bengali.AI. I'm gonna watch a movie, fap and make myself feel a bit better.
I can do this. Nothing is the end of the world for me. I got me.