Lost for words at times
2023-01-04 04:55:12 (UTC)

Unnerved By Manchild

I have no idea what is going on with the British weather. It appears to be raining more than it normally does, if that can ever happen here.
The torrential downpours that l again had to battle whilst walking home after my night shift was extremely unpleasant.
The rain was almost ice like, as it was whipping across my face by the violent gusts of wind. By the time l got home my face felt like it had been sand blasted and was bright red. Sometimes, l do regret not learning to drive, especially when mother nature is unleashing hell.

Tonight, manchild just turned up as l was about to leave for work. I never bothered texting him saying l didn't want him to take me. I just presumed because l didn't replie to his text he wouldn't turn up.
I don't know what it is about him, i'm starting to feel asthough he feels a sense of entitlement or maybe l should learn to say 'no'. I don't mind being friend's with him but.. l have this sneaky suspicion he has some other ulterior motive or maybe i'm just overthinking the whole situation.
Also.. when he dropped me off he said "i'll come get you tomorrow". What is he playing at? Of all the time l was actually with him he never once took me to work. I'm finding the whole situation unnerving and what has he really done? Nothing, apart from take me to work.
This is making me feel anxious! Maybe l should tell him to leave me alone. It seems as soon as i'm happy and content with the ways things are, someone has to try and burst my happy bubble.


My 'mini' has survived my first IPL treatment. I can't believe l did that. I have now started zapping my legs, well one of them. Maybe, i'm going to have to spread what body part's l do over the week and 48hrs before l go tanning. It's fairly quick operating it. It took me under 10 minutes to do one leg. The pain of it is strangely odd, its like a stinging, burning, sensation. To be honest it was fairly tolerable and almost enjoyable.
Hopefully at the end of it, l will be as smooth as a dolphin or that is my intention before the summer months.

Right.. it's nearly time for 4am checks.
So l must dash.

Until next time, take care of you x

Grateful for
My friend's and family💕