Amber's ramblings
2023-01-01 16:25:26 (UTC)


Well I made it to another year. And given what happened over Christmas I'm really surprised I did. Having a candle fall on my head wasn't high on my list of things to do in life.

So this is the new year new me bullshit. I don't think so. I'll still be the same sarcastic loveable weird bitch that everyone knows.

So I've been keeping this secret from my best friend. And I feel really bad about it. She doesn't know that I'm still seeing him. I can't tell her. She doesn't like him and says he's not good for me. I know she's probably right but I love him. I can't choose between them I love them both. But at the end of the day I know who would win.

I've been thinking a lot over the last few months and I really honestly don't know where I stand with him. I love him with every fibre of my being. But he confuses me on a daily basis. He says he loves me. I just don't know that he does. I'm always the last person he thinks about. All I ask from him is don't lie to me. And I know he lies.