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this is me

As soon as Mike read the last post he said ' as usual all about you" I told him this was my diary of course it is all about me. This is about me. This is about my feelings, which you would know if you would just talk to me. I have spent the entire day alone. Well, after Mike left for work Kim did come home for a little while and hung out with me. He is going over to his friend's house from work to watch the game and have a guy party. Whatever, here I am alone wanting to be the wife you want but I can't without you.

I am just about to give up on us. Thanksgiving was wonderful, we had a great dinner and even sent Mike home a plate, which he enjoyed. He didn't spend the day with me, but he spent the night with me, if you know what I mean. So I am so super confused. He wants me, he loves me....but he can't stand to be around me

We have nothing in common, he could spend his life working and playing in second life, he cooks and cleans, he doesn't need me for anything.

He wants me to put him first? Ok, I am, but he isn't here to see.. Today I am 81 days norco free. I'm bored as fuck so I'm not gonna lie, for some reason I can't remember shit, except the dealers number. But I won't but I could...who would know? I am alone, no one really cares. Fuck it, I'm going to dance until this feeling passes

peace begins with me