玲奈

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2022-11-24 10:24:06 (UTC)

what would i do?

she asked me "what if I left you for someone else?"
I honestly didn't know what to answer to that, I can't imagine that things will go back to as it was before especially if it's without her
I was indeed doing fine but it was better when she came
Who knows? I'd probably end it all right there if it did happen

I hate myself, I really do
I hate how much of a burden I am to her, I hate how much I made her worry, how much I made her cry
I hate how I get random panic attacks and I couldn't help myself but clench my shirt
I hate how I'm not mentally stable, and I abuse myself too much
I couldn't imagine how things would be if she's not there
I feel nauseous and insecure if she's not here with me,
I never wanted to make her upset, just not really sure how I'll face this problem if she would get mad at me

She's sort of my comfort person now, but also the only person who can potentially rip my life apart
that's okay and that's not okay either
I'm just repeating myself just like what I did to him
I'm such a problematic person, i really hate being a burden to others


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