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last night

Even though he said it would be too hard if we had sex, I did get a text saying that if he did do this, I couldn't hold it against him in the future and it can't change anything. At this point I was so horny I could hump a tree, so I said of course. He said go to sleep, if it does happen it will happen. Boy the excitement I felt in my privates...finally some stress relief. It was hard to fall asleep with all the anticipation, he would come in there and fall madly in love with me all over again. About an hour or so later he came in he woke me up with his touch, it was what I needed.

But....it was so, impersonal. I mean not impersonal, Mike knows every single place on my body to touch, but he didn't kiss me, he didn't kiss my neck. It just made me so sad, it was a misunderstanding, he thought I wanted sex, which is basically what I said. He said I lied, no I didn't I thought that's what I wanted, but I wanted him. Our love making was never just about sex last night I just realized what it was that I am losing

and this makes me so sad stress free now....but so very sad