Slowly descending into madness
2022-10-21 02:38:57 (UTC)

Penguin dream (∞)

This is October 21, yesterday the sunset was unreal. However returning from uni on the bus I encountered a man. He talked. For 1.5 hours. I told him to stop talking 3 times. He never listened to me. That was the longest 1.5 hours of my life.

Loud noise; sound of engine, sound of horn, sound of crowd anything triggers migraine. And today I didn’t have any lunch, I was just living on water, so I suffered a lot actually. It should be allowed to kill people for talking. That asshole took 1.5 hours of sleep from me. When I came back home, I was dying. I felt like hitting my head against a wall. I had two clofenacs, nothing was helping me.

Apart from good sunset and a productive day, I was sleeping on the floor today. I had a dream about asshole penguin. Naturally I woke up and started missing him. So I stalked him a bit. That's when I saw sth interesting. My "precious"ex lover is following him on Twitter. What I don’t understand is what the fuck is going on. Tazim and I had a talk a few weeks ago about my lovelife and he was saying stuff like why don’t you two talk to each other, fix things, people don’t live long we don’t have much time blah blah blah blah blah. But that was just a conversation. He prolly thought it was his job to fix things. Idk anymore man. And honestly don't give a fuck. None of these men belong to me, they have their own lives. If they think the other party is going wrong somewhere, they can have a conversation to themselves, it's not my place to burge in. Another reason is my ex is simply being annoying as fuck. Which is pretty compatible cause penguin is equally if not more annoying. They should date each other, the level of assholeness matches 🤣🤣🤣🤣 Anyway not my place to think. I'm not even gonna ask my ex anything about it.

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