I don’t know why, but I am finding myself particularly exhausted this morning. I feel as if I did not rest at all. Today, I must force myself to get things done. I need to order herbal supplements and I must order groceries. I don’t know if I’ll make it through this day.
S made spaghetti last night. It was wonderful, as usual. She spent all day, it seemed like to me, talking to her boyfriend. This bothers me. I am not a jealous sort, and I do not care if she dates or sees another man. Yes, we were married once, but we haven’t been married in years and though she can be abusive at times, I still treat her with the same love, mercy and kindness with which I would like to be treated. I consider her a friend and though I don’t know that I’d go so far as to say I’d die for her, I would do quite a lot for her if I were able.
The reason it bothers me that she spends so much time engrossed in J, her boyfriend, is that he, on many occasions has been abusive to her. Now some would argue that it’s a good thing. She’ll know how it feels to be maltreated. I do not see it that way. there is no behaviour, nothing so drastic that a woman could do that would justify hitting her. I can’t be convinced otherwise. He has done this once, that I know of, and he has also laid hands on her several times. He also yells at her constantly. Ok, to be quite honest, for honesty is a necessity in this world, they yell at each other, but it still rankles. Yes, S has mental problems as I do, but she can do so much better. I wish she’d see that the way I do.
Well, the dogs want feeding so I’ll leave off for now.