The Queen
Silkworm
From my-diary prompt ..shuffle
From my-diary prompt shuffle
What is the dumbest way you๏ฟฝve been injured?
Who made you feel good this week?
Nobody, legit no one.
What gets you excited about life?
It's a storm of suffering for the believers?
What do you want?
On site paid job and therapy. The Healed sisterhood academy.
What are your views on religion?
Monotheism solely.
Who can you genuinely trust?
Allah alone.
What are you looking forward to?.
Forward to improving my portfolio so that I can get a job.
What do you wish others knew about you?
I wish they knew why A G is important to me. I wish my friends understood this. And alas! They don't.
What is your favourite way to spend a day?
Wake up, take ๐ฟ, water plants, make breakfast, and force myself to work for improving my portfolio, not because it's exciting, out of need.
What brings you joy?
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What attributes do you admire in others?
To speak up for themselves, humor, easy going, emotionally regulated, assertive, patience, connecting.
What has been holding you back?
Me being unemployed with unpaid onsite job, I'd then get therapy.
What do you love about life?
That it has all these creations for distraction from our pain.
What makes you unique?
I trust nobody.
And people think I'm trustworthy.
Yes, if you give me your bag, I'll keep it as a trustworthy thing okey.
What are your top five short time goals?
Onsite paid job
Floral garden
Vegetable garden
Driving
Therapy
What are two things you can't do without?
Faith
Adhkars
Who is someone you miss?
A G
What is your happiest memory?
When i used to read Quran everyday.
What did you most enjoy doing this week?
Maybe eating buttered ๐?
Do you worry about what other people think about you?
I'm told, yes.
What would you do differently if nobody was judging you?
I'd read Quran more often.
Go attend Quran class.
Devouring fruits.
Drinking blue pea tea.
Grinding mishri/ sugar cubes for my eye treatment.
Eating my concoction first thing in the morning like i used to.
Meeting more people because they wouldn't be at my head to get me married.
What have you done that nobody knows about?
Neither do we share sins, nor sth we did good.
Yet I've spilt milk long ago because i was tired of drinking ruh afza milk everyday.
What brings you happiness?
Good food, flowering plants, cute birds, SQUIRRELS. cats. And pretty dogs. And unavailable man aka A G.
How would you describe yourself?
Cool, laid back, learning to get out of trauma, good listener, will understand and hear you.
What has been distracting you lately?
Zalฤฑm ฤฐstanbul
What did you learn this week?
Binge watching is exhausting.
How do you want to change your life the next year?
By having a healthy diet and body.
By being more spiritual and increasing in piety.
By serving my mother more.
Who made you feel bad this week?
My friends.
What is your relationship like with the different members of your family?
F disconnected disgust
M connect, wounded, hurt, uncared, salt rubs, love, compassion
R betrayal strained invalidating, M's pain.
Z conversational, emotional dumping couches.
What can you do today that you were not capable of two years ago?
Sleep in the evenings, stay at home, driving lessons.
What is your favourite movie, and why?
((The basketball diaries - Leonardo's friend locked him when he faced withdrawal symptoms.))
What is your saddest memory?
My life is a sad memory.
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
My grudge holding nature.
What matters most to you right now?
To get a paid job.
Who are you?
I'm a Muslim.
As a child, what did you want to be when you grew up?
My brain has always been so numb, my self awarenesses journey just started.
What is your secret desire?
To have a house of jumping castle.
Who do you admire, and why?
A G, for his bravery.
What lie do you tell yourself?
Me disappearing is a way out for me.