just someone random

stupid thoughts and life
2022-09-08 15:25:25 (UTC)

i hate myself

to me im an embarrassing memory that makes you shudder when you think about it
I'm honestly a bad friend. After being friends for a while, I push them away because I start to overthink and assume that they think I'm annoying. I also go through friends so quickly- either they leave me, or i leave them, because we kind of just stop being friends
when i get mad at family ill say the stupidest things that i cant take back.
when something happens, ill overthink and overreact.

ill also say the shittiest things at school and to my friends without thinking, and they'll look at me weird
and then ill obsess over it for days, weeks even, wishing i could time travel and takes things back
but of course i cant.

one of the reasons why i want to graduate so i can leave and start over.
except it doesnt work like that




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