Lost for words at times
Ad 2:
2022-08-26 19:35:40 (UTC)

I need to stay focused

They say that no matter what is going on, you have the ability to face it, deal with it, move past it, learn from it and evolve further into your full potential because of it.
Because right at this very minute, i'm struggling with everything l have been through so far this year.

One thing i'm not doing is falling back on that cycle of making the same repetitive mistakes by repeating the same mistakes and expecting different results. I have sadly ended a few friendship's because of this. One a long term friendship, that broke my heart. This person will never change. They never brought anything good to the friendship even occasionally even expecting it to turn into a booty call. Fuck that, once bitten twice shy.

I need to find a hobbie or something. I just don't know what. I enjoy the time l spend alone as l don't mind my own company. Although, l do get lonely not sharing my life with that special someone. Nevermind, l have my cat Toby he'll suffice l guess. Well, when he isn't trying to rip me up!🤣

My client that passed away on my last night shift was a pending death. I went to see him at the start of my shift to access him. He was still in good spirit's considering. We had a beautiful client, staff friendship. I even told him it was my last night shift for a fortnight and not to do anything think crazy by leaving us. And what did he do, he transitioned to a better life. I had the honour of looking after him for 9 1/2 years until he succumb to cancer. His decline was a matter of weeks from diagnosis. I'm going to miss him ALOT atleast he isn't suffering no more.

Anyway, i'm rambling now time to go l guess.

Until next time, take care of you x

Grateful for
My friend's and family
My online friend 'K'🖤