marielmia
Mariel is MIA
Moving away from submission. Maybe.
Apparently, Tall has learned that he can't last minute me. He's called several times a day and texts relentlessly when i don't answer. I'm at work. Respect that. Right?
So tomorrow we'll no doubt have our mid week bop. I basically gave him the green light yesterday, so he could have slowed down with the texting and calls, but I'll take that as a positive.
I've been "practicing" a lot of late- even in my bed at home Saturday, with my parents a thin wall away. Kinda evil. Of course, they've heard me getting truly banged by Javier, my father's pick for a husband for me, last year and it probs scarred them. Maybe that's why i found getting off there so deviant- in a good way.
I feel more confident in myself. I know there was never a reason for me to be so mousey about intimacy. I do crave it, just in certain out of the mainstream ways. But i do so want to be mainstream. The further the distance i am from M, the desire for a full on submission with its requisite degradations, seems to be fading. That said, if M, or PB, or both just appeared, i know i'd be on my knees pronto. But for now, i'm where i want to be.
I'm gonna be assertive with Tall, starting tomorrow. Yeah, that's where i want to go. But for sure i'm gonna be forceful. I may need some help from a botanical of course. Maybe I'll make brownies for desert?
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