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why do I feel guilty being ..

why do I feel guilty being attracted to people sometimes? it's strange because there's nothing wrong about said attraction considering that it'll be like a celebrity or a classmate, or a character on occasion. i just feel really shy about it. so maybe not guilty but not confident in said attraction.

no but like why am I here at 4am googling hot men ?? where did i come from?

so i was getting ready to watch this AITA video by deb then she mentioned getting the idea from ooga booga, "one of my favorite youtubers", so i went to check him because I thought I'd heard of him before. turns out I was there previously but didn't make it through the video I checked before clicking off. so i watch another one of his to really get a feel for this person that deb seems to like watching, despite her humor seeming to be so drastically different. and bro has a LOT of simp tweets. and i was thinking like, bro is definitely attractive, but similarly I feel he has the same attractiveness aestheticwise to like doctor mike or jerma. so then i go into googling whether ATTRACTION is subjective because beauty is something that society has made a huge thing when its really just genes and subjective attraction that is influenced by societal views but anyway. google said yes. attraction is subjective so obviously there are gonna be people who think someone is freaking ethereal looking while someone else might say the complete opposite. so anyway someone linked r/ladyboners and here i am looking at hot celebrities ive never come across photos of in my entire life.

couldnt help but notice that the subreddit significantly lacked any melanin... well anyway, saw a hyunjin post and dipped. not that i dont agree. but i... "an endless parade of attractive South Korean performers who spend years in grueling studio systems learning to sing and dance in synchronized perfection" its kind of intimidating. i feel like, these people are so good at what they do, and attractive at that, that its scary. idk how. or maybe its not even that. i just dont wanna get sucked into the hole of freaking idolizing these hot people. u know? idk. i dont even know. either way.

OKAY I DIDNT DIP. I SAW *THE* EYEBROWS. LIKE THE SLANTED ONE. THE ONES THAT ARE LIKE / AND I. LOOK. THAT MG LOKI, OR RATHER, THE ACTOR HAS THOSE KINDOF EYEBROWS AND I JUST CANTTT THEYRE SO PRETTY i love them (the eyebrow type). but erwin's eyebrows are loud and bold and i like them too..

whats the obsession with height?? i can see the appeal of all three extremes. little people is a different preference imo
lust is very recent hting to me since its not rly been to do with attraction some of the time (like once)
lee pace....

um.. helloo???
thisis after saving the entry but
lisa bonet??'
THAT IS A
oh sorry my excitement exceede dme or ofsmstehing
thats a hot woman. thats a rly good looking person. LIKE OMGG?????
IMI SORRY I JUST HAS DOT ALSDF